@yuppiechuu

As for Why I type myself sp6 EFLV specifically.
I live in a very psychological, mental, uncertain world that overthinks and self questions. Simple actions from others make me question if I had done something wrong, I often look back at my past and wonder if I had made the right or wrong choices. I obsess over my own past to seek out a way to live correctly in the future; Justifying that ruminating can help me navigate the world, that I can minimize future loss if I learn from past mistakesUnlike 1L, I am prone to doubt my own conclusions, seeing how I understand the world to be something subjective than objective. I ruminate "oh no, they hate me because x, y and z" and "oh no, what if i just misunderstood them, which one is it then?" This is something very common through out my day to day life. Proning to ramble than be terse with my thoughts.I doubt excessively, including all of my own logical conclusions, often experiencing a mental checkmate or paralysis. I want (need) to question and understand, but simultaneously, I don't trust my own understanding to be flawless. I feel deeply insecure to even speak up about what i think. When I speak up, I instinctively supple my words with "maybe" "I think..." and so on, always anticipating the chance of me being wrong regardless of the effort of research I put in. (I do not feel myself being truly competent to reason, despite being called over-rational by my friends)I over rationalize or under rationalize, sensationalizing my experiences instead; I feel insecure of my logical capabilities because I am also quite emotional as a person. Most of my thinking is largely fueled by feelings of anxiety, uncertainty, and even real paranoia. (In case you wonder, I do not have a personality disorder, only social anxiety)
I noticed in myself that I often make "strange" or paradoxical conclusions which exacerbate my shyness and pain with logic.And I don't relate to 2E because I experience emotions very closely and obsessively, I find adapting to other's emotions difficult, awkward, or energy consuming because I think everyone is entitled to their own emotional experience. I am rather terse with how I express my emotions, I like using metaphors, or artistic images to hopefully demonstrate the experience. I feel insecure of my emotionality as well because it puts me in vulnerable situations most of my life. It is challenging to put down my sentiments and live as if I don't have them.Passive physics + process generally fits me because I don't have much demands over physics beyond my simple needs met, and I'm quite interested in adapting to other's lifestyles. I enjoy leading an active life; I see physics as an area of indulgence and sharing, with me being the provider. Despite fears, I am very keen on making companions and friends. I feel that it is a major need to be a part of a friendgroup as a "safety net" for me to fall back on.I am friends with people I don't even like for this reason. I do not feel entitled to be loved, I do not desire recognition. I seek friendships to supplement me with support and stability; strong, enduring, loving companionship is an instinctive conscious desire for me . Despite my social anxiety I still try to seek out companionship or connections because to me it is much more disadvantageous to not. I anticipate future issues within my relationships, and invest in ones I see a compatible future with.All of this above makes me a socially awkward, anxious, internally active person; who lives in multiple worlds of potentials that both encourage me to act and discourage me from actions. I try to foster hope and goodwill superficially but I still feel extremely ambivalent about close relationships, preferring to not feel dependent of the very people I love; forming weaker friendships so if I mess up, it wont be a big loss.